At the minute I am slightly manic on Pepsi, the end of "The Social Network" and just the realization of what the internet can make people. So I just finished watching the social network. It is Genius - you're just sitting there going oh my god this is so unbelievable that it has to be true. You really couldn't write that shit. I am feeling slightly hysterical about it all. I just wrote about 100 words about it,here, and then realised that it sounded manic, so I deleted it. :)
I am really in shock about it all. Like if I managed to publicise myself enough I could be an influential personality on the web. It's kind of crazy. I'm determined to make something of it. I've heard so many tragic stories recently, of people getting so far and then not becoming anything, or having a really great life and then having it turned upside-down by some uncontrollable twist of fate. I cannot let that happen to me.
Wow I almost feel drunk. Scary; there wasn't vodka in that Pepsi, was there?
Anyway, back to my train, I am so sick of people telling me to get up and seize the day. Well, fuck you all: I'm about to seize the night before. Like my god, I am well aware of the problems facing the world and its mother but I have my problems too and I don't mean to sound selfish or whatever; I know people have much bigger crosses to bare than me but please don't do another Oprah special on it. Don't plaster it all over my face. I'll help those who need it but if you're chatting on a sofa, or narrating you're own show, then you're not dying.
How did it get to this? Me judging people?! How very unlike me it is... That's sarcasm if you don't get it. I think this is my ranting mood. I am able to rant as you can read. I actually love a good rant. It can be about anything, really. Usually if I'm ranting to your face it's not that effective because I can't speak very fast. It's one of the issues with being a Boylan. If you knew my dad you'd see where I get it from.
So where is this rant going? I'm starting to become paranoid... this is me coming down from that caffeine high- In my head I'm saying why the hell would anyone read this? I don't know why but I suppose it might be for entertainment, even though I wouldn't find it entertaining . Look there I go, making no sense and doubting myself. God I should probably stop but I can't... This is making me nervous it's like word vomit except I'm typing - it's type-vomit... Ewwwwwwww that sounds disgusting. My god it just keeps coming. Caffeine !!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWW
Koby .x
